Time to move forward

I got a letter in February about my search for my birth parents from the Adoption Disclosure Services Program in NS. The are ”ready to begin the search” for my birth mother. They requested I send a letter for my birth mother describing myself and my family – like a non-identifying biography. They also want a snapshot of me to have ready for my birth mother if the are “fortunate enough to find her”.

I’ve been waffling on this, mostly because I don’t know if a) I can handle being ‘rejected’ (all perceived) by this person again b) I’m afraid of what I might find out and c) What will become of me once I have this information that I’ve never had before?

I have in recent weeks received a number of emails regarding my being adopted and my search. One email I got from Karin in the US who happened to be born on exactly the same day in the same year as me sharing her positive experience with an adoption reunion from only the day before.

“Hello Mike. This is the universe calling. It’s time you did something with this.”

On the upside it’s not taking three years as I shared on my blog for them to get to my case. Even though it took more than a year I’m still amazed. Along those lines I recieved a note from Lori, a community services researcher for the NDP in Nova Scotia. She said she wants my case to be raised in the Nova Scotia legislature highlighting the understaffing at the Adoption Disclosure Services Program in NS and perhaps have me speak to the press about it as well.

Wow! Who knew that people would find something on my blog to further a cause. I just thought I was spewing junk.

I’m not sure that the press would be the right idea as I don’t want to publicly humiliate my birth family and jeopardize the possiblity of a happy and private reunion. I don’t know their situation and am not prepared to hurt them in anyway just to find out what I desire to know. Who knows if the people in my birth family’s lives even know I exist. It’s not up to me to expose something that might be a deep dark family secret. That just doesn’t sit well with me.

So yes, I’ll write the bio and send the picture, but I don’t think I need the hooplah. I will share it here if I can. That might be enough for now.