Draft One – 15.5 pages

Another four pages today. It just seems to be coming out of me now. I could just keep going but a part of me wants to take a break every few pages. Kind of like savouring the moment. Or maybe I’m afraid of what will happen after I’m done. I get so far ahead of myself sometimes. Anyway, I’m just doing it.

I’ve also had some great ideas about marketing the short on the web and other fundraising ideas to help get the full feature made. No Telefilm isn’t one of them. There are no french speaking beavers in touques or maple syrup drinking Mounties in canoes in this film. At least not yet. I was think more along the lines of cool merchandising. Stuff like hats, t-shirts, keychains and mousepads. That kind of stuff. I’ll explain more as I get closer to launch the site for the short, but that’s quite far way right now.

Any words of encouragement are welcome right now. Other people’s positivity does help if even just a little. However, I’m realizing that it’s only from within and my belief in good orderly direction that I can find the will to action on this one.

What’s holding me back?

Problem: Self doubt and fear – I have never written a full feature length screenplay before. Maybe I can’t pull it off. Maybe it will be terrible. Maybe people will say it sucks. Maybe its a waste of time. Maybe no one will ever want to help me make it. Maybe… maybe… maybe. I’m Mike and I’m a maybe-holic!

Solution: Do it anyway – I have seen worse crap than I’m writing and that’s very recently. I may not be Shakespeare but I have my own unique voice and a desire to move forward with it so why the hell not? Writing this is just one stage in production. I’ve already succeeded in developing it to the point where it needs to be written let’s just write it and see what happens after that. No matter what happens, when I finish, I can say I’ve written a screenplay for a feature film. Once I’ve done it, it’s done.