Sad

I’m too depressed to blog much today. The home we love is being sold. We’re still not sure what’s happening. All we know is the house is for sale and we very probably have to vacate the premises. We don’t know when or where we’re going or how we’re going to manage. We thought we would be here until at least after the Olympics, but that’s changed. Having a decision about our security made for us is one of the most unpleasant things I’ve ever been through.

I haven’t been working much and our finances are in tatters. I’ve never quite bounced back after losing my job at that place. It feels like being run over by a gigantic snowball that’s been following me for the two years since I left that gig. That said, this feels worse than losing a job.

This is the last thing we need right now. I spent the afternoon curled up in a ball on the floor with my dog. Thank goodness for her, she kept me company. Carol’s upset too, but neither of us seem to be losing it at the same time, so we’ve been able to be there for each other.

I have a horrendous emotional hangover. My stomach hurts and so does my head.

All of us are very upset, Bennett and Moosh too. I’m not sure if it’s the stress, but Moosh’s health has taken a turn for the worse. It appears her vestibular disease is back and she is having trouble walking again. Her timing is impeccable. Ugh. We have to find a place not only that will handle us and all our stuff but a sick old dog too, which is extremely hard to come by, and within our very limited budget. I just feel sick every time I think about it.

People are saying things like buy the house. My response is, “with what?” We’re broker than broke and owe more than we can pay already.

I’m very afraid of what’s looming. We don’t have parents in the province so we can’t ask for help like moving in for a while. We’re running out of options, I don’t know what we’re going to do.

This has been the darkest day I can remember in the last 15 years. Help had better be around the corner. I’m not sure how much more either of us can take.